Day 29: In the past, part of the reason I gave up on meditation was that I got frustrated that I wasn’t good at it, that I couldn’t get into a rhythm. I’m used to things coming easily. And this: sitting, focusing, quieting — does not come easily.
So I’m trying to let myself be a beginner here. And maybe I’ll be a beginner for longer than I’d like. Maybe in part because this doesn’t come easily, my heart has kept asking that I revisit it. Nothing worth having is easily won.